Apologies and heartache

Posted on Sunday October 21st, 2018 @ 4:13pm by Captain Sumire "Remi" Rembrant & Lieutenant JG Niklas Blom M.D. Ph.D

2,294 words; about a 11 minute read

Mission: Season 2; Mission 2: It's Only Fun Until Someone Gets Hurt
Location: Remi and Erin's house
Timeline: October 19th 4566

Remi was at her and Erin’s house in her bedroom taking a nap as medical was indeed correct about her needing to slow down. After talking with Thorn and her departure having the time to finally lay down was so welcome gesture. She knew that likely someone else would come and request her presence somewhere though. She much liked being in bed with someone because then at least they could lock the door and give an excuse as to why the world was not allowed to intrude. For now though she would take the little bit of a break she could get.
  Niklas walked up to the house, and reached the door. He tapped the panel and waited for the answer.(edited)
 
The house AI answers. it looks like a white haired Caucasian girl in a French maid outfit she bows and says “how can I be of assistance to you sir; what is your purpose at my mistress’s home.” (you just know that the two girls would program her to say that just because of how much of a perv both of them are)
The white haired blue-eyed maid stared at him
 
"I"m Niklas Blom, nurse practicioner for the the DFS Lavie. Iam here to check on Sumire Rembrant." Niklas said.
He glanced her at chest. His speed might not get him caught.
 
“I see; Lady Remi. Right this way.” The AI then turned allowing him to follow her as once he entered the door closed it self and she took him upstairs to Remi’s room.
“ Milady you have a guest. A sir Niklas Blom from medical.” “ go away... why… I want to sleep!” Remi Replied through the door But it eventually unlocks itself
 
Niklas offered."This is just a checkup. I was advised your temperament can be.....resistant....to rest so I am doing a quick wellness check, and then I am out."
 
“... whatever... you’ll leave halfway through it anyway like you do with everything else...” Remi Replied coldly but instructed the maid to let him in. She had already unlocked the door anyway so getting her permission was a formality. The maid opens the door for him and then leaves doing a curtsy as she leaves.
When he enters she was just laying on her bed staring up at the ceiling.
She was in her usual pink shirt and short Jean shorts Barefoot
She looks Surprisingly different different with the black hair though And with it going to her mid back.
 
Her  comment stung, but was also accurate. He said, "I deserved that, and more." He pulled out a scanner and waved it over her. "All you showed me was kindness and friendship. All I got in return was more heartache, since Neera, whom I head over heels for is now in jail."
 
“ and the OJM is petitioning for review of the case... people forget who I am so often... I am told by personnel that information security will be reviewing the case for her and Sera... among with some of the others that they don’t believe were actually specifically involved... get your scans though those of the only reasons you’re here.” She turns to the side facing away from him. (OJM is the Oritoria (I always miss spell her home worlds name) Judication Ministry... basically it overseas that justice is made even in cases where “justice has already been made“ Think of it is the appeals court that specifically serves their governor because he’s no longer a king so they wouldn’t necessarily serve the king because he’s not a king anymore)
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"Since I am here, let me at least apologize for my behavior. You deserve better and I treated you poorly. Even artificial beings do stupid things." Niklas said. "The black looks good on you though my opinion holds little value anymore. Truth is you were the first woman I had been with since my wife died and I got cold feet."(edited)
 
“ and you’re the third person to just walk away from me congratulations... I don’t know how an apology will fix that... I guess at least you found someone who you love... go wait for her.” Remi sits up and put her legs up against her chest wrapping her arms around her legs and just sort of staring at her knees. “ i’m no stranger to being rejected you’re one of like six people who just said fuck her... I should be used to it but I’m not.” She paused then added “ sorry again about losing your wife... it happened a while ago but it doesn’t make it sting any less... The pain just... is hidden behind a wall.”
When she replied to him to that she was referring to her mother and brother dying and everyone else who has abandoned her even though only two of them were actually dead she likened losing a lover to losing a family member.(edited)

"Well, looks like fate agrees with you, since Neera, not my wife, is someone I may never  see again. In retrospect, you were the smarter choice." He packed up his instruments as he added."You are recovering. But until either Petell, or Slane clear you for duty, please take it easy.  I wasn't kind to you, I wouldn't blame you for never speaking to me again. I can only apologize so many times. " Niklas offered. "I can't blame you for moving on to Colonel Thornton and Flan." he said getting up.(edited)

“ it’s not about who won or who was a better choice... it’s about who you love that’s all that matters... everybody acts like it’s a game where that you can only ever have one person in your entire life! If you love someone does it matter; damn right it does... and nobody should be able to tell you who to love... yeah I may be physically healthy but my body feels like shit... i’m tired all the time and all you people keep telling me to do is slow down... I can’t the world doesn’t slow down for me- I—“ she frowns. “ nobody will understand what I’m going through...” she then stops talking
 
  Remi glared at him “ see that’s what you don’t get none of your damn people get this… Am I saying it’s because I lost my mother and my brother… When did that even come into the equation it’s more like all you fucks who just walk away from me after taking everything from me—- you just!!!—- fuck all of you!!!” She bats her hand at the air “ sex for a girl is a major thing and you guys just...” she cries “ and then you leave...” she becomes silent still shedding tears “the universe doesn’t care I’m hurt; obviously... my father chooses now to-“ she stops speaking then adds “ as if I didn’t have enough problems...” She just lays back down.
 
Niklas put the kit down. "What do you want out of life?" He asked.
 
"What... Why would that matter... I'm- and you come up with-" She sighs controlling her breathing for a moment to calm herself down. "I want to be happy, I want who I love to be by my side and I want to lead my people to prosperity... Not entirely in that order... because to me paradise would be something I go to after I've led my father's people and our homeland into peace... Then my idea of paradise would just be to be on some ship or some planet alone with those I love being able to explore the world and the galaxy in peace without strings..."
"In short for my happiness to even begin... we have to save the galaxy first..."
 
"Okay." Niklas said. "I'm trying to get you thinking instead of crying.  I suppose my behavior was just the last straw. Again, I'm sorry, but, as your friend, I will be here to help you save the galaxy...if you'll let me."
 
"I'm not unreasonable... I just want people to think of me before they act... Everybody is so quick to judge me without even bothering to think of why I do what I do... Plus... I want my body to work like it use to... in mid-war we don't have time for me to be laid up and in physical therapy for months just so I'm able to fight again... Funny that I say that; two months ago if you told me to fight I would tell you to go fuck  yourself... but... things change; now I will fight to save people. That must be why my father waited until now to give me control of his armed forces... He knew I would have declined his request." Remi explained. She was still hurt over everything and just wanted to drown herself in drinking so she could forget her pain but at least he wasn't "yelling" at her anymore. "As for your apologizing... I don't know... getting that close and then just friend-zoning me... it hurt... it felt like you were breaking up with me before it even started... And; I mean you may not like that I have chosen to see multiple people... as others do not like it; the thing about that is... Like I said a few minutes ago... Nobody should be able to dictate who you love... for me I am able to commit myself to multiple... I shouldn't be judged because of that; just like most people should not be judged for their choosing one person to share their life with. As for who I am with... I fear Flennel is more concerned with guarding me than showing me love... We've both said we want to be with each other romantically but I am not sure its actually there in her eyes... Now that I am more stable... thank you for the compliment on my hair... I guess the implant when I gives you the uniform and all that; it reverts you back to your natural hair color... good bug to report..." remi said sitting back up; the remains of her feelings visible but she was much less combative, more agreeable and less outwardly emotional; it was still obvious she felt hurt.(edited)
 
 
 
"For an artificial lifeform, you'd think mistakes would lessen. " Niklas quipped. "I have no right to tell you how to live your life. Only you can decide what makes you happy."(edited)
 
"So what are you trying to tell me?" She asked.
 
"I'm telling you do what works for you and to hell with the consequences." Niklas said. "I didn't mind the silver blue hair either. You look good with both."(edited)
 
"Somehow; this makes me want to drink even more... Maybe that is just normal..." She said standing up and moving over to her replicator ordering tea and leaning against the wall as it is generated.
"And... I prefer the blue... and it shorter..."
"But... somehow... the black seems more fitting right now in my life..."
She grabs a little bit of her hair and twirls it in her hands staring at the long straight black hair contemplating it.
 
"Drinking only dulls the pain temporarily like a sedative. The problem is the reason you drank in the first place just festers. You want to get better. I will write out a simple regiment that the Doctors will approve and a diet designed to heal you faster."  Niklas offered.
 
"I know that... but at least it makes now feel better... sobriety is overrated... as for a PT plan and meal plan... do your worst... tch... the emotional pain and the need for love are more my problems what with everyone running away when I bat my eyes at them.
"
She said grabbing her tea dns crossing her arms.
 
"Is that rhetorical, because I am not a in a good place at the moment and the last thing I want is more grief piled on you." Niklas offered.
 
"No; and it's not an offer... you made your intentions clear before... Who am I to make  you be with me when you'll run off again... I'm not ready ot be crushed like that; especially now... I can only lose so much before there is nothing more to really lose." She drinks her tea.
 
"Do you want me to help you with your hair?" Niklas asked.
 
"Nah... you probably have other patients anyway... oh yeah... you guys as Ari told  you all before; you should check the news feeds... IS is releasing Neera..." Remi downs her tea and throws on her sandals to leave; she really didn't want to be in here anymore.
 
NIk pulled her into a hug. With his strength, she coudn't resist. "Thank you. Listen, I owe you. I want to prove i can be a good friend if not the best lover. If you need anything....you let me know. "
"And since I don't sleep really. I am around more." He added.
 
When he pulled her into the hug and spoke she was left speechless. She wondered what he meant but couldn't get the words to come out. She just stayed there motionless in  his arms.
 
Niklas saw her blank expression. "Too much?" He asked.
 
"N-- n... no......" She felt her head rest against him as she became less tense and just let herself go as she just held him and silently cried into him.
 
He held her, gently stroking her long hair. "Sshhh... Let it all out."
 

 

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